I started Seamless with two of my friends this week. It is a Bible study written by Angie Smith, aimed at understanding the Bible as one complete story. Obviously, it starts in Genesis.
Genesis chapter 5 is about the lineage from Adam to Noah. There are two things that jumped out at me while reading it. One - these people are remembered. Two - some of them were remembered for walking faithfully with God during their years.
I don't want Ellie to ever be forgotten. I'm the one to make sure that doesn't happen. And I want to faithfully walk with God while I honor her memory.
I want her name to be synonymous with faith and hope and peace and love.
I want people to know that like the meaning of her name...she was an answered prayer. I thank Him for her every single day. Sometimes through tears, and often with a smile.
I want people to know that while she weighed barely over a pound, she had weight in this world. She was wanted. She was longed for. She was fiercely loved.
She is our daughter. But even more importantly, she is a daughter of the King. A child of the Most High God. Radically loved by the famous One. Today and forever she resides with her perfect Father.
Sometimes I have to remind myself that I am too. This broken & wounded girl who is desperately trying to turn her mourning into dancing...I am the daughter of the Most High God.
I am chosen, blameless & holy.
I was bought at a great price.
I intimately understand that cost more now than I ever have before.
And I belong to Him.
Maybe you are like me, and you sometimes forget this. I hope that this little blog post serves as a great reminder & encouragement to you. You are a beautiful child of God. And there is joy in that, even in the midst of heartache.
This month is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness month. I am participating in a month long healing event called "Capture Your Grief", organized by CarlyMarie Project Heal. Each day of the month there is a prompt for taking a photo & writing/journaling. Today the prompt was wish list.